I have spent too much time on "what is wrong with the world." Or with people. Or with myself.
Living the mindful life dissolves this conversation. It's about accepting what is rather than judging everything as "okay" or "not okay" in my petty understanding of the universe.
This goes for how I treat other human beings, and how I treat myself.
There are times when my weaknesses seem so glaring. I want to fix them. Or outright reject them. I want to reject me.
Christi! You are disorganized! You are overcommitted! You are scattered
and flaky! You are way too unpredictable! You are shy at the wrong
times, and a loudmouth when you're not being shy! Can't you be
normal?" The litany goes on.
I turn things around when I start talking to myself differently.
I can replace the above commentary with something like this:
accept you, Christi! With all your multi-facetedness! With your
enthusiasm! With your divergent thinking! You are full of surprises! You
are versatile, with a flexible approach and interest in many things,
which makes you unique. You are exactly the way you need to be."
What a difference!
The same goes for the way I treat others. I can see them as flawed, or let the power of love show me their perfection.
and more, we humans are finding out that what we once thought "wrong"
or "abnormal" is merely a different way of being, valid and beautiful.
Andrew Solomon highlights the power of acceptance in a moving way with the following Ted Talk.
Thursday, November 14, 2013
Monday, October 14, 2013
Weaving through fog in a trench coat
at a train station in the late hours of night
stranger god, a profile in shadow
with your collar turned up
walking cool and slow
a pigeon feather
from the last flight of fall
as you turn
and your breath billows
and then, ohyou are heading this way
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
These words saved my life fifteen years ago when I was going through a dark time. Lately, some of the old pain has resurfaced, and I've found myself battling issues I thought I'd outgrown. I'm returning to this passage from Rainer Maria Rilke's Letters to a Young Poet.
Think, dear Sir, of the world that you carry inside you, and call this thinking whatever you want to: a remembering of your childhood or a yearning toward a future of your own--only be attentive to what is arising within you, and place that above everything that you perceive around you. What is happening in your innermost self is worthy of your entire love . . . .
When we're in emotional pain, the last thing we feel like doing is paying attention to our innermost self. We want to run away to someone or something. We'll visit an addiction that gives us a temporary feel-better fix. Or, we'll make judgments about how wrong we are, how full of mistakes and problems.
Being attentive to what is within you doesn't mean judging. It's not good or bad. It just is.
What I understand, this time around, is that when my psyche and emotions are shivering with pain, I have to slow down and hold still. This is so very uncomfortable. Yet I've learned by experience that a blossoming is on the way.
I need to sit tight with who I am and what I feel. I can watch it all unfold, even as I'm bewildered and impatient. Holding everything with acceptance . . . and love.
Tuesday, July 2, 2013
Monday, July 1, 2013
Others won't see my most successful moments: when I have quieted my critical mind, or when I have yielded to the call to create, or when I am bravely choosing to celebrate my true self. This is all right with me. This is a fine and good thing. Even if I am too small to be noticed, I am full of joy."The real moment of success is not the moment apparent to the crowd."--George Bernard Shaw
[Photo: balsamroot atop Dog Mountain, 2013]
Friday, June 28, 2013
Don’t go. Don’t run away from my presence in this moment. Don’t rush into doing, trying, making, striving. Sure, it hurts to hold still and feel everything. There is no place to hide from your pain, and all the things you have lost, and all the things you long for. But there is love right here, too. I am right here. Please stay.
Photo by Christi Krug
Thursday, June 27, 2013
"Always be on the lookout for the presence of wonder." --E.B. White
I snapped this shot hiking San Juan island, lost in the wonder of exploration. It reminds me to keep watch: at any moment, I can find the Presence of the wonderful, whether I'm on a trail or learning to navigate my own soul.