Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Never Stop Getting Up

A monk visited Abba Sisoes and told him he had fallen from grace. “What should I do, Abba?” Sisoes replied, “Get up again.” After a while the monk returned to ask, “What can I do now? For I have fallen again.” “Get up again,” The old man said, “Never stop getting up.”

This is my current favorite story from the desert tradition. I like its sly humor. One can almost see the old monk winking at us as we grasp after any and every form of spiritual perfection. But there is generosity and kindness here, too. Yes, we fall; yet, this is all part of the human condition and it is precisely here, in the midst of our fallings, that there can emerge a profound sense of the abiding presence of God. The desert monks were convinced that temptations and struggles were important not because they needed to be avoided, but because they can teach us so much. They seem to be saying to us that wherever we are God is there also. Wherever we are, in deep sorrow or in an acknowledgement that once again we did not measure up - and usually by ‘not measuring up’ we mean to our own impossible demands. Even in loss, and, of course, in joy, God is already there waiting for us.

Last month, Sr. Laura Swan visited our Contemplative Outreach community. I was especially moved by her insistence that it is in this world where we encounter the sacred. She said, “Modern asceticism is being called to what already is.” This involves the sense that “we have enough, we are enough.” Right here, right now. Perhaps, the last illusion from which we need to be freed is the illusion that who we are is not quite right, and far too imperfect to be a vessel of God’s grace, love and abiding presence in this world. Sometimes we feel as if a miracle is required in order for us to be enough to carry within ourselves the presence of God. But the message of faith is that the miracle has already occurred. Here we are, called into holy being by the simplest gesture of God’s ever creating word.

We do fall, but we can get up again. We can “never stop getting up again.”

Blessings,
Tom

1 comment:

Goes Nowhere Laughing said...

Never let using stop you from quitting.

I decided to quit smoking marijuana once upon a time when a standard size baggy filled three fingers high of marijuana, called a lid, sold for $10. Ya. For real.

One day, I flushed what grass I had left down the toilet intending to quit. The next day, I bought another lid and smoked a whole big bunch. Then I flushed the rest down the toilet. I repeated that behavior chain again the next day, and for many days after.

After a week, I went one full day without smoking any weed. The buy-smoke-flush ritual repeated for another week, and then I went two complete days without smoking.

You see the pattern. About a month later, I went five days without, then six, then seven, etc.

Never stop getting up and don't let using stop you from quitting.