Tuesday, April 15, 2014
Living in My Host Human
"So how are you?"
Such a simple question. But I'm having a hard time with the answer. Does the person want a real answer or a simple one? Does she want to know the status of my survival? The facts of my life? Or does the person want a picture of my soul?
I've been stunt-jumping on a tricky course. I've been slogging through personal growth and healing. I may feel peaceful, jubilant, sad, confused, ambivalent, or all of these things at once.
It's really kind of amazing to step back and watch the weather of the heart.
Yesterday I met a friend for lunch. "How are you?"
"I'm doing great," I said. "My host human is having some issues, but I'm doing great."
My friend smiled. "Your host - wait." He smiled. He got it.
So I'm seeing all that is going on with me - relationship questions, creative energy, perimenopausal mood swings, adventures, dreams, and heartbreak - all of this is temporary. It's the stuff that comes with living in a human body.
I have this deep-rooted sense of well-being below all of it, in the center of all of it. And as I identify with who I really am, this spirit connected to the Presence, this eternal being living in an earth moment, well - I can experience the ride without judgment. At the same time, I don't have to gloss over the feelings.
Oh, my host human. She's pretty great. But I'm glad she won't be like this forever.
Image Credit: Rocky Mountain Laboratories, NIAID, NIH